Intimate Motherhood

All the Things That No One Says | Anchorage, Alaska Maternity and Newborn Photographer | Moss and Myrrh Photography

Gus + Tom + Anne Marie

I can’t believe it’s been almost 2 YEARS since I shot these sessions and yeah, I’m just now getting around to editing them. This wasn’t your average session..many moons ago I did a model call for a mother that would be interested in documenting an entire year of her life before and after baby. I didn’t want this to just be pretty pictures, I wanted it to be real, REALLY real, and honestly? Uncomfortable. Not because I enjoy making anyone uncomfortable (just kidding, I do when it comes to this subject..ha!) but because I feel like a large part of motherhood and the process of being a mother is kept quiet. While I may not ever be a mother myself, I do work with women on a constant basis..women who are in their most vulnerable state, completely exhausted both mentally and physically. I hear their pain and I know it exists, but those thoughts/words are too taboo to be said out in the real world.

The words/thoughts I’m referring to are the ones that make people squirm. You see, there is this idea that you must ALWAYS be grateful for the child you are pregnant with. You must ALWAYS feel an instant connection. You must not speak words of regret, wishing for something other than this, or dreaming of a life without this little life, because why? Well, they’re precious gifts, aren’t they?! No way are they exhausting both mentally and physically. No way do they literally turn your life upside down and completely change EVERYTHING. No way are they human beings themselves with their own intricate problems. No. Way.

Women are seen as some sort of devil if they feel anything beyond complete and total love and well, it’s bullshit. Life is not black and white and so many dynamics are coming into play here.

ANYWAY, back to the project (so side tracked always), I wanted to work with a woman who was willing to talk about all the “bad”. I wanted other women to hear her words and know that they aren’t alone, their feelings are valid, they are NOT crazy or wrong. Anne Marie met me a coffee shop and instantly, we connected. She told me all the “bad”, how she didn’t feel a connection to this human growing inside of her. How she also suffered horribly from depression + anxiety without even being pregnant, so this was a whole other level. She was scared of the future. She was scared of how this baby was going to change everything. She was scared.

And so I knew, she was the one. THE ONE. But it can be an ironic asshole, can’t it? And so it was. I got a text from Anne Marie on a very cold winter day telling me that baby Gus was here! Of course, he didn’t come “as planned” (hate that term, there is no plan, the do what they want) and Anne Marie had to have an emergency cesarean. All I could think and worry about when I read that text was her mental health. We both agreed that the birth of this baby would probably be what gave her a sense of reality, that this was real, this baby was hers. It was SO hers it came right out of her vagina..but it didn’t. Add the physical healing on top of the mental junk and yeah, I worried about her. I got to her for a newborn session (we live eons apart..just kidding, an hour and a half) at around 3 weeks I think? Maybe 2? I have no clue anymore, but she was exhausted. Maybe she seemed more exhausted to me because I’m used to moms putting on a front for me. They want perfectly beautiful pictures. Anne Marie knew I didn’t want that though and she didn’t either, this shit was real. So, she she showed and told me her most vulnerable. She continuously suffered with mastitis. I mean, CONTINUOUSLY. Eventually, she had to stop breastfeeding all together because it never ended. She showed me the beautiful cut across her belly where this little human emerged. She told me about her exhaustion, anxiety, and depression. “Luckily” (because this isn’t lucky, this is how it’s supposed to be) she has an amazing husband who is as supportive as it gets. He knows/knew her mental illnesses well, he knows/knew her boundaries.

This is where I dropped the ball though and I’ll forever be guilty. I think the darkest times after a baby are well, after the sometimes months. Once you get passed the newborn phase where it’s pretty cut and, sleep, poop, die from exhaustion, repeat, you have to learn how to mold your entire life around this tiny human being. I really wanted to document that with Anne Marie because I knew she’d be blunt and tell me truly how that was going for her. Irony of all irony though, my husband deployed and then my mental and physical health fell apart. I lost all my motivation for this project and then I got so physically ill (literally random exorcist vomiting) for months that just the thought of driving over there was too much for me.

That’s life, though. It’s like, “oh, you want to document an entire year of a woman struggling through mental shit while also trying to love a new human?”, “here is a steaming pile of your own shit to struggle through..enjoy”. And so that’s how it went and I never got back over there in the timeframe I wanted to.

I DID get to document them a couple of weeks ago as a family with a TODDLER, though. Per usual we talked about things no one wants to hear. Gus is a wildling and Anne Marie has a grin that spans her face whenever she looks at him. You can tell she is head over heels in love with this boy (and Tom too, of course) but he did change everything. He did throw a wrench in their future plans. They do think about all the things they’re missing out on. And before you start shaming them in your head, stop, come down off that horse Karen (sorry, to all the Karens reading this). YOU ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE THESE THOUGHTS. It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay. Enough with the perfect parent BS. Enough. You’re allowed to have regrets, be exhausted, and dream of what your life would’ve been without your kids. I’m not judging you and if anyone else is judging you, they’re lying to themselves.

Life is not black and white, your thoughts/feelings and “what if’s”? They’re perfectly valid. I have them, you have them, we all have them. So anyway, to the mama reading this that thinks she’s alone in these thoughts, you are not. If you ever want to write a long email and confide in me everything you think someone else will judge you for just to get it out there, do it. I’m here, always. Oh, and I love you and you have a whole team of people that love you..even if you can’t feel it right now.

Last thoughts..postpartum depression is REAL. If you see someone that is struggling, please reach out. We have got to do a better job of listening and supporting women. Life and community are not what they once were. This isn’t a 50’s sitcom. There is no longer a village..there is a woman sitting alone in her house with social media being her main form of human contact. She’s lonely and all she wants is a break, a shower, some real food, someone to talk to about all the above shit no one wants to hear. Offer to make them dinner, fold their laundry, take them to the doctor (for that medication that is also so taboo) WATCH THEIR BABY, so they can go take a shower and be a human for 5 seconds..anything to make them not feel so alone.

Anyway, here are some pretty pictures. There are NIPPLES happening in this newborn session so if you can't handle BREASTS, don’t scroll down..also, I don’t know how you got here since I openly show women giving birth, but that’s for another post.

Enjoy. xx

P.S.- Anne Marie, I love you. Thank you for your vulnerability and mostly, thank you for being a friend (cue Golden Girls music). I’m so glad I know you and we (+ Tom, can’t forget Tom) can have way too serious conversations in your kitchen about way too serious matters. You’re amazing in every way.

Kaile + Beau | Anchorage Lifestyle Photographer

I've been trying to get this session edited for over 3 MONTHS now, guys! Oh, don't worry, this was a model call (and a great excuse to hang out with my friend Kaile + her chunky man) so, don't think I leave my client's hanging for 3 months normally. Ha! Client work is actually what kept me from editing this gorgeous session. One of my favorite sessions to do is sink baths. I. Love. Them. That and milk baths, apparently I'm obsessed with baths? The way they photograph is just ahhh. Skin on skin + water? Yes! Anyway, here's Kaile + Beau, before he turned the big 1 and had to grow up on us. Oh, and there's a sassy kitten too!.  <3 

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5 Tips to Dress + Prepare for your Outdoor Session || Lifestyle Photographer Wasilla, Alaska || Moss and Myrrh Photography








I'd say 99.9% of my blog posts are about how much I loooooooove my job. Right? You know, you read these things (hopefully) every week. I assume you've already figured out that I LOVE my work and I LOVE my clients. Ha! So, this week I decided to switch things up and do a little chatting about what to wear for your session. It just so happens that Kaile is THE best example of what to wear (figures, she's a photographer), so this is the perfect session to use as an example! 

Hands down, what you wear to your session is probably one of THE most important parts of preparing.. What you wear can completely change what you get back in your gallery once it's all said and done. So, I'm throwing together 5 little tips to get you started. Enjoy!

1.) Do NOT wear fluorescents. 

Obviously, this really depends on the photographer and the style they go for, but we're talking about my work here sooo, please don't wear fluorescents. Haha! I'm talking ANYTHING bright. If you like color, that's perfectly fine, but stick with the more muted/darker tones in that color. For example, yellow. I do not like yellow but I LOVE mustard. Love. Another example, red, brick red would be perfectly fine. Save the fluorescents for your 80's halloween party. ;) 

2.) Start with one outfit you LOVE.

Choosing clothes for the entire family can be really overwhelming. I suggest you start with one outfit you really love. Go to your closet (or store) and choose one outfit you, your spouse, your kids, whomever, feels really good in + fits the tones needed. Now, play off that one outfit. 

3.) You don't all need to match!

Remember the days when we'd all throw on our jeans + white t shirts for our Sears pictures? Yeah, those days are GONE. Ha! You're allowed to each show your personalities. You don't HAVE to fact, I discourage it. You know that one outfit I said to start with? The tones in that outfit are what you're going to be playing off of. Look at Kaile's session below, there's some deep/navy blue going on in her outfit, so she added in the dark blue wrap for Beau. All you need are tiny pieces of color to pull you all together. This can also work with earrings, necklaces, rings, blankets, etc.

4.) Muted Earthy tones, please.

I'm sure you've seen in all my work..I love to edit dark and I love to use earthy tones. I often get asked what earthy tones are, just look outside! Those colors you see naturally are the colors I love to work with. Green, blue, yellow, brown, gray, white, cream, etc, etc. As you'll see in Kaile's session, she's rocking all the earthy tones and it ties in perfectly with the landscape around her.

5.) Shoes matter!

Plan your outfit out, all the way down to your shoes. Sneakers/Tennis Shoes are a big no go. Sandles, boots, or barefoot is what it's all about. If I come to a session and someone's shoes aren't working, I almost always ask them to take them off and go barefoot..which I love FYI. So, if you aren't interested in being barefoot, make sure to show up in the right shoes! Oh, one last thing..nails. Cut them, paint them, do whatever to make them look good. They WILL be noticeable in a session, at least to you. ;) 

I feel like I barely touched the surface here and could probably go on for days, but I think this is a good base to start with. I have a very detailed What to Wear Guide I send to all of my clients once they've booked, so don't worry! Also, styling + planning for your session is one of my favorite parts, I encourage all of my clients to send me texts with pictures/questions. It's what I'm here for, so don't feel bad bugging me during your meltdown of "WHAT THE HECK ARE WE GOING TO WEAR?!". <3 

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Alaskan Motherhood Session in the Forest || Wasilla Lifestyle Photographer || Moss and Myrrh Photography


Alaskan Motherhood


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Ah, a few of my favorite things: motherhood, chunky babies, and the forest. I've documented these two since the day this sweet one was born and oh, I love them. There's something amazing about getting to watch a little grow and change, but it's also pretty amazing to get to watch the mother grow and change. We are constantly evolving as people but aren't consciously aware of it because we're so wrapped up in life. I get to see it from the outside though and I love seeing how Motherhood changes each woman. Chelsea is such a good a mama and Wyatt, ahhh she's growing so fast! Thank you, Chelsea, for letting me document this season of Motherhood for you. Wyatt is going to cherish these so much! 

P.S- These sessions are now discounted when booked with your birth and/or newborn session! Motherhood Sessions are booked anytime between 3 and 12 months after baby's arrival and they're all about you + your little and the bond you've created. <3


Forest Adventures | Lifestyle Photographer Wasilla, Alaska

Wasilla, Alaska Family Photographer || Moss and Myrrh Photography

So very excited to share this session with you guys! As many of you know, I'm kind of sort of obsessed with all Motherhood sessions, so this one got me right in the feels with it's earthy tones + sweet grins. Oh, and did I mention this was shot on my own property? Yeah, it was. Even more feels! 

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